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02/17/2007 - Many of you have seen the dedications from JW Kelley on the "messages" page of this site. Like many of us, JW Kelley's life changed following Taylor's story in the media and the Internet. As a talented song writer and poet, JW Kelley modified some lyrics of existing articstic works, but now we have the lyrics to a beautifully written original piece about Taylor Behl, the person. Here is an introduction to the song by the writer, followed with the lyrics to the song.



There is a strange little story about this song.

I followed the Taylor Behl case from the beginning, but I never really thought about writing a song in tribute to Taylor before. I rededicated an earlier poem, “For a Murdered Friend.” to her and I reworked the lyricsof a Kansas song, “Lamplight Symphony,” to be about both Janet and Taylor. (Both of these are in the “Messages” section.) I mever really thought about writing a tribute song, until...

The Wednesday Ben Fawley plea bargained, I did my usual ritual of heading to my favorite pizza place before walking the short distance to church. I arrived quite early, and being alone in the sanctuary, I went to the altar to pray. I prayed that God would somehow allow Taylor to send Janet a message to let her mom know that she is just fine on the other side. A short time later, I got the initial idea for this song. I do not know if I am ready to say that it is indeed a message from Tay-Tay; but what a GREAT thought.

J.W. Kelley 2/11/2007



TAYLOR (Beneath the Crescent Moon)
Lyrics by J.W.Kelley [with help from Will Drummond]
Music by J.W.Kelley
For Taylor Behl (1987-2005) - thanks for the inspiration


The sky was clear and brilliant.
Crescent moon burned silver bright,
but deep inside was a darkness.
So I took to walking the night.

Night breeze carried along the scent
of Dolce and Gabbana Light Blue.
and the sound of someone humming
an old doo-wop tune.

Stretched out on a park bench
She stared up into the sky,
watching that silver crescent
with deep,dark,innocent eyes.

“Hey there! What you doin’?” she called.
Sat up and got to her feet,
“The name’s Taylor.” She extended a hand.
Her smile was so intriguing,pure and sweet.

“Say, is there anything the matter?
You really don’t look so well.”
And everything came spilling out;
a rending story of a livin' hell.

[chorus]

Taylor, you’re an inspiration,
a light beyond compare;
but this world preys on innocence,
So, darlin’ please take care.

A gentle touch of a healing hand.
A loving heart so true.
A lovely, little angel,
beneath the crescent moon.

“Would you like an orange soda?
You know, sometimes it works for me.”
Then she pulled out a six pack
from exactly where I couldn’t see.

“Here’s to finding someone who’s kind
and saying ‘sod off’ to the blues.”
She raised her can into the air,
“and music in the moonlight too.”

Said “Come on, I’ll show you something,”
with sparkling mischief in her eyes.
Then led the way across the park
to the top of a little rise.

Threw her arms wide, and her head back
laughed and said “Just let go!”
Looked just like a little angel,
in the silver crescent’s glow.

[repeat chorus]

Must have stood there for 20 minutes
feeling awed down to the core,
and with her eyes raised to the sky, I thought
I heard her whisper, “Love you more.”

[instrumental break]

She handed me her last orange soda
said, “Have one more for the road.”
Gave me a giggling “Cheerio!”
and a kiss upon the nose.

Then she walked back to the park bench
and turned to wave goodbye,
hopped onto her skateboard
and zipped off into the night.

I go by there now quite often,
but I’ve not seen her again;
though I sometimes catch the sound
of her laughter on the wind.

Taylor, I’ll see ya anytime
and I hope you make it soon.
And we’ll raise a can of orange soda
beneath the crescent moon.

[repeat chorus]

[guitar,didgeridoo jam]




My Review of Love You More
01/22/2007

Having spent many hours keeping up with Taylor’s case and updating this website, I had mixed feelings about reading Janet Pelasara’s book about her daughter. Part of me knew I had to read it and another part of me wanted to avoid the emotional turmoil experienced by people across the globe during that month of wondering and hoping. I remembered how much difficulty I had dealing with my own emotions, and knew that what I felt had to pale in comparison to the emotions felt by Janet, Matt, the rest of Taylor’s family, and all of Taylor’s friends. With that in mind, I braced myself and opened the cover of Love You More.

The book is written in a style that is easy to read. Many times you find yourself feeling as if you are there watching and experiencing the early parts of Taylor’s life. In fact, the story begins well before Taylor made her debut into the world. You learn some background information about Janet and Matt, how they met, how they began a relationship, how they fell in love and eventually married. The reader is there with Janet during some trying moments before and right after Taylor arrived. You learn that Taylor’s infectious smile is something she used to brighten the lives of those around her very early in her life. The reader finds out that Taylor made it a point to befriend everyone around her, and very early in life she felt compelled to help those in need of help from a friend. You learn about some of the stumbling blocks that Taylor surmounted that helped shape her bubbly character.

We all followed the news stories that told about Taylor’s early mastering of traversing the Atlantic after her parents split. At a very early age Taylor earned more frequent flyer miles than most of us earn in a lifetime. To say that Taylor had a unique childhood is an understatement. Being the child of divorced parents is hardly unique, but living abroad in England as well as other parts of Europe following Janet’s marriage to a British military man definitely offered Taylor some opportunities and experiences most of people do not get. Perhaps it is these experiences that made Taylor into a person that everyone in America, and many people across the world, came to feel as a part of their own family.

All of the background information sets the reader up for the final year of Taylor’s life, and eventually for the events that took her from her family and friends. Janet goes into some details about the process Taylor took in choosing a college. She covers some of the teenaged angst Taylor experienced, including some moments when Taylor recognized her own shortcomings. Taylor made no excuses for her mistakes and accepted responsibility for her actions.

The events that glued the world to their TV screens, radio, news websites, and this website, are explained in painful detail. You will relive the emotions felt during the search and the heartache felt when detectives located Taylor’s remains. Janet shares some of her innermost thoughts and feelings in a way that rips the reader's heart apart. You will experience again the incredulity at Fawley’s ever changing story and the grief when Taylor was laid to rest on her 18th birthday.

Most importantly, the reader develops a true sense of what made Taylor someone loved by total strangers all over the world - a dream Taylor shared with the world in one of her online journals. Though not the way she intended, Taylor accomplished her dream.




My Review of Love You More
01/22/2007

Having spent many hours keeping up with Taylor’s case and updating this website, I had mixed feelings about reading Janet Pelasara’s book about her daughter. Part of me knew I had to read it and another part of me wanted to avoid the emotional turmoil experienced by people across the globe during that month of wondering and hoping. I remembered how much difficulty I had dealing with my own emotions, and knew that what I felt had to pale in comparison to the emotions felt by Janet, Matt, the rest of Taylor’s family, and all of Taylor’s friends. With that in mind, I braced myself and opened the cover of Love You More.

The book is written in a style that is easy to read. Many times you find yourself feeling as if you are there watching and experiencing the early parts of Taylor’s life. In fact, the story begins well before Taylor made her debut into the world. You learn some background information about Janet and Matt, how they met, how they began a relationship, how they fell in love and eventually married. The reader is there with Janet during some trying moments before and right after Taylor arrived. You learn that Taylor’s infectious smile is something she used to brighten the lives of those around her very early in her life. The reader finds out that Taylor made it a point to befriend everyone around her, and very early in life she felt compelled to help those in need of help from a friend. You learn about some of the stumbling blocks that Taylor surmounted that helped shape her bubbly character.

We all followed the news stories that told about Taylor’s early mastering of traversing the Atlantic after her parents split. At a very early age Taylor earned more frequent flyer miles than most of us earn in a lifetime. To say that Taylor had a unique childhood is an understatement. Being the child of divorced parents is hardly unique, but living abroad in England as well as other parts of Europe following Janet’s marriage to a British military man definitely offered Taylor some opportunities and experiences most of people do not get. Perhaps it is these experiences that made Taylor into a person that everyone in America, and many people across the world, came to feel as a part of their own family.

All of the background information sets the reader up for the final year of Taylor’s life, and eventually for the events that took her from her family and friends. Janet goes into some details about the process Taylor took in choosing a college. She covers some of the teenaged angst Taylor experienced, including some moments when Taylor recognized her own shortcomings. Taylor made no excuses for her mistakes and accepted responsibility for her actions.

The events that glued the world to their TV screens, radio, news websites, and this website, are explained in painful detail. You will relive the emotions felt during the search and the heartache felt when detectives located Taylor’s remains. Janet shares some of her innermost thoughts and feelings in a way that rips the reader's heart apart. You will experience again the incredulity at Fawley’s ever changing story and the grief when Taylor was laid to rest on her 18th birthday.

Most importantly, the reader develops a true sense of what made Taylor someone loved by total strangers all over the world - a dream Taylor shared with the world in one of her online journals. Though not the way she intended, Taylor accomplished her dream.




01/19/2007 - Dawn http://www.dawnscd.com/ wrote a song about Taylor "Doo Wop Darlin'" which is on her new CD "It's 'R' Time" and is on sale now. From Dawn's website, "Taylor's Song is a reminder of how easy it is to become a victim in today's world... (The song) should serve as a warning and reminder that you have to be careful no matter how well you think you know someone. I cannot help but feel Taylor was a person I could have called friend."

01/19/2007 - Janet Pelasara will be at Borders at Tyson's for a book signing on February 3, 2007, at 2 P.M. Be sure to stop in and get a copy of the book. I have read the book twice. The book is powerful as it takes you through Taylor's life from before birth through the tragic end. Some questions that many have asked get answered. I will not spoil the book for you, so go get a copy and read it for yourself. If you go to the book signing, be sure to give Janet a hug from me. I would love to meet her at the book signing, but from Alabama to Virginia is a bit far of a drive. You may read more about the book below.

01/19/2007 - I hope everyone had the opportunity to watch the 48 Hours Mystery that featured Taylor's story. For many of us, this was the first time hearing Ben Fawley speak. If you catch it on a re-run, be ready, he gave me the 'creepy crawlies.' See if you notice him looking down and to the left before he answers any questions. Listen to him stumble and stammer as he concocts another BS answer that makes no sense when placed into context. I hope everyone else gets a good chuckle during the part where they describe Fawley being his own worst enemy. Something else you should notice is that Taylor's case is not one where the Internet or MySpace was used to lure a young person into harm's way. Listen to Fawley's lie about the "plans" he and Taylor had that evening. Then watch the Surveillance Video of Taylor Entering Dorm and Fawley Lying-in-Wait and following her out of the dorm several seconds later. Was she expecting him? Did she even see him? My opinion is that she had no clue he was there. Watch Fawley closely as he moves out of Taylor's possible sight-line, then reappears and follows her. In my book that is stalking behavior. Please save the video to your computer and view it there. RIGHT CLICK over the link, select SAVE TARGET AS, select a place to save it. Then double click the file to play it.

11/01/2006 - Taylor's mother, Janet Pelasara, has written a book about this case. If you wish to order, PLEASE do so through one of the links provided below. Here is how the publishing house, Harper Collins, describes the book:




A true story of a devastating loss, a mother's love,
and the search for justice in the face of heartbreak

On September 7, 2005, at 3:30 in the morning, the phone rang at the home of Janet Pelasara, in Vienna, Virginia. The call was from a police officer at Virginia Commonwealth University, where Janet's seventeen-year-old daughter, Taylor Behl, had just begun freshman year. Taylor had not been seen since Monday evening, the officer told Pelasara. Within hours, Pelasara was on her way to the campus in Richmond, and two days later her frantic search led her to the door of the man who would later be charged and convicted of Taylor's murder. His name was Ben Fawley. "You don't know anything about your daughter," he said. "She's not the good little girl you think she is."

One night several months earlier, Pelasara had walked into Taylor's room to use her computer. Ben Fawley had been on-line, trying to find Taylor, and Pelasara was quick to identify herself as Taylor's mother. "Now that Taylor will be going to VCU, I hope you will keep an eye out for her," she wrote. "She's only seventeen and this is her first time on her own."

"I'll be glad to," Fawley wrote back.

Love You More is a story that will resonate for parents everywhere. Each year, thousands of mothers and fathers leave their children at unfamiliar college campuses, where they are expected to begin the first phase of their journey into adulthood. And each year, on the drive home, already missing them, these same parents hope and pray that their children will adapt and thrive.

It is also a story that will resonate for students everywhere. In this day and age, where cyberspace has become the place to stay in touch with friends and meet new people, we seldom stop to think that we may be saying too much, and to too many. Before you type that revealing entry, it's wise to ask, Who's watching?







Love You More: The Taylor Behl Story
Love You More: The Taylor Behl Story

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